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So? Just Disregard?

My heart
My feelings
My love

My confidence
My brokenness
My shame

My self blame
My guilt
My whisper

So? Just Disregard?

My Likes
My interests
My tastes

My will
My strength
My pain

And all the things you said before don’t mean anything anymore.
I just wanted to make things even.

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Hiatus

I’ve been absent for a while now
just trying to get my head straight.

Most days I tolerate.
Others, I dream away.

If I cause the pain
does it still
count as
trauma?

–

On the days when I feel numb,
I lay in bed and listen to the clock tick.
I count the letters in words on my fingers.
I sing sad songs in my head.

I’ve been absent for a while now.
But like the spring, my surface is thawing.
Tender earth sprouting forth new buds
that emerge from their seeds
to breathe again.

Stargazer

How did I get so lucky?
What magnificent star
were you born of?

Madly

Your hand grazes mine, palm facing upwards: a question.
I lace our fingers together: my answer.
You teach me words in foreign tongues.
I whisper jokes and you laugh along.
This will always be my favorite song.

Yearning

I yearned for a level of intimacy from you
that I wasn’t yet privy to receive.
Time was no friend;
And as the years rolled by,
you only locked yourself in.

Back Burner

I hope you’ve been reflecting;
and growing and expanding.

I see you’re still writing.
I hear your phantom typing.

I always loved your passion, but
it often took my place.

Lonely me held down by you.
Lonely me always judged by you.

As Feathers

Your lips are soft as a feather.
They flutter over my skin.
I don’t know how you do it-
make me fall in.

My arms wrap around your shoulders;
Draw you down to me.
I hope you’re drawn to me.

You rest your head on my shoulder.
For once, I am strong.
I can bear us both.